Stale Content Alert!
This post was written a long time ago, and my views have almost certainly evolved since then. Please keep that in mind while reading, commenting, or sharing.
Only this time, it’s the rough draft of a Core paper, not a philosophical essay.
Nevertheless, it’s pretty much the same situation all over again. My brain won’t come up with original thoughts, or when I think I have a great idea, it gets completely and totally locked in my head the moment I sit down and try to write it. I can think about it, but the words just won’t flow in the slightest. I end up trying to back up my ideas with multiple snippets of quotes or episodes, rather than honing in on selective episodes and picking them apart for detail like I know I should. I know I should be doing close reading, analyzing smaller parts of the text, using a “microscope rather than a panoramic lens,” so to speak, but my brain just won’t do it. I don’t know how, or at least I feel like I don’t.
My brain feels like it’s not working at all– or if it is, it’s deliberately working against me.
What has gone wrong with me? Why, all of a sudden, am I unable to think well– or express my thoughts through words?
And again, I doubt my being here; and again, I feel hopelessly lost and crushed.